THE REIL WORLD RETURNS
I've been laying low,and I was going to lay low in the cut until I got off parole which is only about 10 days away from now. I wanted my name off of message boards, and away from the bickering of old enemies, who don't know when to stop even when their enemy isn't me anymore its theirselves. After overcoming all of my demons, and let me just say that was the hardest gut wrenching experience of my life, but to me it was do or die.
Life is so unfair sometimes that I can understand why people like The Mic doesn't believe in any religion. There are so many unanswered questions. The death of my friend Jimmy is a prime example.
Here's a happy go lucky guy, who knew his role in the wrestling business, and outside of the business was a kind, and sweet man. A truly one of a kind person. The phrase only the good die young is more than a phrase to me, it's a fact of life.
It broke my heart that I couldn't attend his wake/funeral tonight. It took me about 5 days to write my thoughts in written form, as before this I could only write a poem because my heart was crushed. It was heartwarming to hear from some of his real friends, and read of some of their memories of Jimmy.
I talked to Johnny Candito earlier this evening, and I was telling him about Jimmy, and he didn't have a clue about Jimmys' death, and it was about 6 pm, and he wanted to pick me up then and take me, but we both knew getting there on the biggest traffic day of the year would be impossible.
The DOI, while being a very popular website isn't as mainstream as a pwinsider, so many friends of Jimmy who don't frequent the internet didn't even know until I told them. It really sucks that they (pwinsider) would leave him off the page. I don't know the reason, but I will say this- Jimmy was a brother to me, and all my fellow wrestlers are brothers to me. Unless they never got the memo's there is no excuse for not putting this up. One of our own passed away, and there better be a good reason why his info was not passed up.
I try to be a calmer person these days, one who wants out of the limelight, so people can see the new and improved me, but in this case I want to explode.
WE ARE THE REASON THAT YOU MAKE MONEY.. YOU MAKE MONEY TALKING ABOUT US. THE LEAST YOU CAN DO IS MENTION HIS FUNERAL INFORMATION. I NEVER NEEDED THE INSIDERS NOR 1WRESTLINGS TO HELP ME AT ALL, SO I CAN GIVE A FLYING FUCK IF YOU DON'T AGREE WHAT I SAY. YOU'RE WRONG. It's a disgrace... A REAL FUCKING DISGRACE.
The type of man Jimmy was was that regardless of what he heard about people, he always made decisions based on his heart, not by what others pressured him to do.
For example, I went to jail, and there were plenty of rumors on why I was there, some people said I didn't pay Child support, some claimed I was in for attempted murder, some said drugs, but the fact of the matter was that I violated probation on something petty. It was only a misdemeanor, Terroristic threats, but regardless of the reason. When I got released after 6 months of soulsearching, all I wanted to do is get where I was going before I ran into the depths of emotional hell. NOBODY really wanted to help me, and thats a fucking shoot.
My friends for years gave me excuses on why their arms were tied, Not Jimmy. Jimmy went right ahead, and said "I'll give you a chance, you seem really sincere Billy about getting your life together." He didn't have to do that, but because of his good character he did, and he didn't regret it after he did because we both lived up to our word. I've been in this business for 11 years now, and Jimmy was the only one that truly believed in me, and I didn't let him down.
I was sent an advance copy of my shoot interview conducted here on the DOI, and It was filmed after the ABC show in Brooklyn. Well on the fly Jimmy comes on the screen, in what I believe is the last time Jimmy is seen on a DVD. I thank him for giving me a chance when nobody else did, and we shake hands, and he talks a lil about me. It really teared me up because Jimmy was aces in my books. I don't really know if he knew how much that meant to me to be the only one who looked out for me, after I've met at least a thousand people in this business.
I got an instant message a little while ago from a friend who was at the wake, and their a little upset that somebody had the balls to show up at the funeral because during Jimmy's last days they did nothing but cause Jimmy grief. Now while I won't blame this person for Jimmy's death because when its your time its your time, but this person caused Jimmy alot of grief and stress because Jimmy cared about her.
He had a thing for her, and she as always took advantage of peoples feelings, and went out of her way to break his heart. I am nobody to say who should and shouldn't go to wakes and memorials, but for many there it was appauling for her to be there beings that Jimmy told many people how he felt about her, and how she did him dirty. He even mentions it in the last column he ever wrote.
Now I'm not saying she didn't talk to him on the phone or knew him, but she used him constantly for various things. Some people just have emotional problems, and she is one of them. Theres a reason why people don't want you around, and this was another example. Some people will never learn. But enough about this cretin..
This is about my friend. A friend who was there for me when nobody else was. A caring, loving man who would do anything for everybody. Many of my brothers have fallen in the past few years, but Jimmy was more than a wrestler in my mind, soul, and heart. He was REAL. Not many people are these days, and I'll never meet another Jimmy Alicea ever again, and neither will anybody reading this.
Jimmy, I love you my brother, may your soul find everlasting peace, and may your name be remembered by everybody who you've ever met to live on in our hearts forever. As they lay your body into the ground to your eternal resting place, please remember that your memory will stay alive as long as all of the people who you touched stay alive.
We'll miss you Jimmy, We'll never forget your smile, your goofiness, your russian's seeking greencards, and the person that we wish we could have half of your qualities.
Tell Eddie, Chris, and Dennis that we miss them dearly as well, and to reserve our spots in the lockerroom in the sky.
We'll never forget you Jimmy
We Love you, and Until we meet at the crossroads look over us all.
Your South Philly Gumba
Billy Reil
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